Dear Robin

Dear Robin Williams,


I am heart broken.  I cannot believe that we have lost you too, and at your own hands.


I am sad.  Sad that such a talented, vibrant, funny person, that brought so much laughter and joy to others struggled within,


I knew of your battles with cocaine and alcohol, and I forgave them.


I knew of your depression, but didn't know the depth of pain and anguish you felt.  For this I ask you to forgive me along with millions of your fans.


I'm not sure what we could have done, had we read the signs, had you even appealed to one or all of us.


I have a basic understanding of bi-polar disorder, and I realize it is very delicate and most times you are either flying or crashing.


I know you recently went back to rehab to fine tune your rehabilitation, and that one of the things you were most proud of were the eight years of sobriety.  I guess I thought this was a gut check and did not realize you were spiraling down, out of control.


There have been numerous stories, in newspapers and on line about the difference between normal sadness and depression.  I am hopeful that even through your tragic passing some good might come of this.


I loved you from Mork and Mindy.  Throughout your career.  I even enjoyed the one season of The Crazy ones.  I don't know if you ever did a role I did not love you in.  Good Morning Vietnam, Mrs. Doubtfire, The World according to Garp, Patch Adams, and the last one messes with my mind (I guess because of the mental illness) RV, Aladin, the list could go on and on.  Specials, award shows.  77 movies and television shows alone


Your wit and humor are unmatched.


I saw an interview the other day and the last question to you was do you believe in GOD and if so what will he and heaven be like.  First of all, you affirmed your belief in a greater being, and then you became quieter and reverent.  I would think that heaven will be magnificent.  Very beautiful.  And there will be music.  Probably Mozart.  And I hope when GOD greets me he tells me Robin, you are seated near the front  And I hope there will be laughter, lots of laughter.  It would be great if GOD walked by and said, "Robin.  Walk with me.  Have you heard the one about these two Jews walking down the road? ...............................................................................


For many of us we have lost our crown jewel of Hollywood.  But Heaven has gained one.  And if there wasn't laughter, I am sure there is now.


Thank you for the laughs and entertainment, you were and will be loved.  I hope you have found the peace you needed so desperately.  We were blessed to have had you for the time we did.