O.K., I need to get back in the groove of blogging.

I know I need the self analysis. I have been fighting many demons that dance in my mind.

This has been a very tough work to get started this year. If something can go wrong, it probably has! From mechanical problems to employee problems, we've had it all. I am still one person short of being fully staffed. I have had multiple people promise they would be arriving but so far they have all been no shows. One former employee has promised me numerous workers but they always fail to show. I think he is blowing smoke.

I have been working closely with Jake and Jason. This is a necessary change due to Fred's death. I think their Dad would be proud of how they are trying to continue to carry the torch. My biggest fear is that they try to live his dream instead of their own. Even though the boys are doing a good job, there are times I just ache to talk with Fred.

I had a conversation the other day with a guy and he termed Fred as having been a haven for wayward truckers. If a trucker was salvageable, Fred could usually get it out of them. Fred's management style and people skill were very laid back and you had to really have multiple screw-ups for Fred to come unglued.

I have been trying not to get over taxed out here at an early stage. It is a real work for me to maintain and even keel instead of blowing my top. Krl said she is proud of me, but worries about when I do boil over it may be like a pressure cooker explosion. Oh ye of little faith (you probably have lived the experience!).

Today saw one employee not show up on schedule so I loaded seed trucks until he did. He had gone to town with another man and failed to come home last night. I bet by the end of his shift he is worn out. Wost thing about his being tardy was I needed to be keying information into settlements!

Yikes.

Krl and I went to Midland Odessa yesterday. Anything from grocery store to forklift shop, to RV parts, to picking up Unit 222. All we did was spend money and get me more projects! At ten last evening I was completing installation of a water heater in one of the travel trailers! Part of today was spent analyzing what the truck shop messed up when they fixed the big truck!

And last but not least, my infernal alarm clock is it's spazzoid self! I think I am more tired now than I was at the end of the '05 season.

Jason took a load of motes yesterday and brought Reidman back through on their way to Roscoe. It was good to see the little man!

Continue to pray for us! We need all the help we can get!

FATHER, give us your peace, give us your healing. I call upon YOUR name!