I have spoken with Pat, yesterday afternoon and again this morning. She is trying to keep me updated on what is going on with Pepa. All I am going to say at this time is it isn't getting any better.

It is extremely difficult for me to not be furious with Pepa, because he alone is responsible. He has made poor choices, and expects everyone to cater to any whim he might have. If I received the call informing me he was stranded on the toilet, I would probably have a difficult time deciding whether to shove and flush or to pull.

I did tell Pat I have a new found respect for Grandpa. To have lost a leg and remained mobile (for longer than Pepa has) he did a very good job. Routine has a lot to do with it.

I am thankful that there are so many close, who are willing to help, and even though I am only an hour away at any time, and even though I am there three days a week, I feel guilty that some of the grandkids are on the call list first. I am just thankful they don't seem to mind.

I am also very thankful that Pat is close and has had the training she has. I have always called her the family medical revue officer. I will admit I have caught myself wishing and wondering what Fred or Tj might interject into the situation.

Coach was in Sweetwater Friday night. Breckenridge was playing basketball over there and he was supporting the roundball program. Coach spent the night with Memama and Pepa.

It was probably a rude awakening for Coach. Memama had to get him up during the night to help with Pepa. Pat said they all had a pretty good visit Saturday morning, but Memama told her that Coach got really upset before he left.

I'm not sure what the next step needs to be. I talked to Pat about possibly having Pepa admitted and evaluated. She wants to meet with his local doctor tomorrow. All of us think if Pepa is to overcome this he is going to have to build some strength, whether it is through a rehab program or something else. The only thing for sure is we know if it is left to him to do it on his own, he will not do it.

I will probably call Jeanetta in Indiana, just so she is aware of what is going on. It has been about three weeks since I last gave her an update.

Have a day.

FATHER, guide us as we make difficult choices.