The week is off to a quick start. My eyeballs wanted to get started long before the rest of my body! Shortly after midnight, my eyes were wide open and ready to get the day underway!

It was a pretty laid back weekend. At least the part that I spent around the house. We ended up grilling both Saturday and Sunday. I kind of enjoy doing it and hopefully it is some relief for Krl. We did shishkabobs on Saturday and served them on a bed of rice. Sunday it was some bacon wrapped stuffed jalapenos for appetizers followed by a couple of little steaks and sausage. Best part is I have leftovers to use for lunch. Heh! Heh!

All my life I have battled with myself. I am not a person who is overly enthusiastic or wears my feelings on my sleeve. I am somewhat reserved. I suppose I have never wanted anyone to doubt my sincerity or consider me to be a hypocrite. Conversely I now find myself wondering the exact same of others. I figure you can sit in the church pew every time the doors open but if it is all for show it is futile. You have to back it up with living it. I figure there are a lot of people who lead christian lives that may not darken the doors of a church.

Instead of wondering if it is live or memorex, I find myself wondering if it is real or for show.

One of the things that has fed this dilemma is a "relationship" with a person that is supposed to be a devout Christian, yet they don't back it up. This person says and does all the right things when people are around to see it, but when it is just them they seem to lose all "Christ likeness".

I try not to be judgemental. But this is affecting lots more than the relationship.

I'm still sorting through things in my brain. More later!

Have a day! Let's get Monday out of the way!

FATHER, Thank YOU for YOUR love!