This is always a busy time of year. Year end reporting. Yuk!

In addition to this Krl and I both seem to be fighting depression. The depression stems from our prolonged stay out here, the lack of movement on the house project, and some parenting issues that have been very difficult.

I suppose if I were pressed I would tell you that while I love our kids to death, I don't really like any of them (more precisely the people they have become or chosen to be). All of them have put themselves in positions that as a parent I feel is very dubious at best. Some of this stems from spouse/in-law situations, some stems from professional situations. Regardless, I am not happy about any of them.

It seems some have a problem with speaking the plain and simple truth. They have the tendency to embellish (to their advantage). It has almost to the point where I don't know who to believe what from, when.

Our youngest, ( and I use "our" because she has two sets of parents) was by yesterday. It would appear she has gone full cycle. From a promising young manager in retail sales while taking a full load of college courses to "rookie of the year" in High Plains real estate to an unemployed college drop out moving home to Angelo to try to regroup.

Krl and I both got to the point where we felt any monetary contribution was only feeding lots of bad vices. The youngest's success saw her inundated with friends traveling in a very fast circle. As the market went flat and the money dwindled, the friends spun to others who were cycling up. Not very good friends as far as friends go. I doubt that any of them would come if called.

Knowing what Krl's and my situation has been the past five years, it bumfuzzles me to know what kind of money "the youngest" made and squandered. It baffles me more to even think about all that has gone on. What contributed to her sudden rise and all the hoopla that accompanies it. I am afraid to delve to deeply.

While "the youngest" is circling her wagons and coming home to regroup, I think it is a lot of smoke and mirrors. Until she does a lot of admitting to herself and to those of us she has lied to and betrayed, she will never put this behind her. Krl urged her to seek some professional help. "The youngest" and my relationship is strained to say the very least and I am thankful that Krl is willing to talk with her. Bit by bit she is getting small admissions from "the youngest" and the direction in which it is going sure points to allegations and questions that we asked almost two years ago.

Our on going dilemma is where to from here. There are issues of trust. What to do, what to do?

The other three children are three different matters, but then that's three other blogs.

Be the real deal.

FATHER, FATHER hear our cry. I pray for Krl and me, for direction, for guidance, for wisdom. I pray for "our youngest", that she would become grounded, that she would get things right in her life, that she would accept who she is. I pray for Adam and his men, that they would be protected from harm and that they would be cared for. I lift up Memama, Pepa, hag, Bets, Jess, Lillie, Aimee, Ashlyn Kate, Dr. Mackie, Jeanine, JBCjr, and Hope. I ask YOUR miracle of healing and care for each of them. I pray for those sad and heavy hearted with grief. I pray for those like me who struggle to follow YOU. I pray for our spiritual family and our leaders. I pray for the efforts being made to expand YOUR kingdom. I pray for Richard, Anastacia, James, and Terah. That they would put off the old and put on the new, seeking to be pure and holy in YOUR sight. I pray for our prayer partners Jenavene and Susan. That we would seek to please YOU. Pure-er in heart, help us to be.