Whew. I worked so hard at sleeping that I didn't rest.

My infernal internal clock has been off. I can't really decide what vocation these sleep habits would compliment. Two or three hours and I am primed and ready to go again, for a brief time. First time to look at the clock this morning (keep in mind my mindset) was 10:40 pm., I battled with myself until 2 am. and finally got up. I was in hopes a few games of free cell and checking of a few ebay auctions might relieve my inquiring mind and allow me to slow my mind down enough to go back to bed. Forget it! At the rate I am going I will be able to go to the office before long and have my eight hours in without ever seeing anyone else!

I visited briefly with Tj yesterday and she was talking about her sleep study. During the course of the night she woke up one hundred eighty-eight times. I wish I could sleep that good.

I checked on Memama on my way to work Monday. She was waiting on the doctor and getting ready to have breakfast. Apparently they both arrived simultaneously. I can just see Doctor Blackwood walking in with a tray playing Jeff Probst. "You can have what is under this cover now or you can have your pacemaker at noon". Instant reward or long term return! Memama elected to have the pacemaker. They had the installation done by an authorized technician just about noon. She had a couple of "spells" prior to the procedure but that was probably due to anxiety. All went well and she was back in her room by mid afternoon. I spent a couple of hours with her last evening. She was beginning to feel a little sore. Probably the worst part of the soreness will be from them using the paddles to coordinate her chambers. Last telemetry showed the pacemaker was keeping her in step.

Today is Krl's birthday. Happy birthday dear. I think a friend or two are going to take her out for lunch. Hope your day is good.

I seem to be at a rough patch again. Lots going on. Work, personally, family. I guess I just need to break it down into small components. I may need to listen to my own capsule sermon. Worry about what I control and turn the rest over to a greater manager.

FATHER, I lay it all at YOUR feet. Take control. I'm not asking YOU to prove YOURSELF again, as YOU have done that over and over again. I need to have the peace and reassurance that all is well. That YOUR plan for me continues to unfold as YOU intend. It's not a YOU problem, it is a me problem. FATHER, YOU know my needs and I ask that YOU meet them. I am concerned for Krl's health and I ask YOUR healing for her. I ask for relief for her. I am thankful for the successful procedure for Memama and I pray that the technology will work. I pray for Ollie, Hag, B., Lillie, Carol, Michelle, Aimee, Ashlyn Kate, Jennifer, Tori, Tj, Anna, Jess, those injured in the accident, Yaenga, Dr. Mackie, and Jeanine. I ask for YOUR miracle of healing for all of them. I pray for those suffering from loss. I pray for those of us battling within as we try to follow YOU. I pray for our spiritual family and our leaders. I pray for the efforts to expand YOUR kingdom the world over. YOU are my hope and promise.