I don't have much blog in me today. I am deflated. I am down. I am depressed. My heart is very sad and very heavy. I am filled with questions.

Yesterday I received a call from Ollie (Merrit Aleis) our youngest daughter. She has had some developing health issues. Recently these have escalated and the prognosis is very serious. Her kidney function is very low. One kidney is functioning at 19% the other is working at 72%. Her doctors are wanting to put her on the waiting list for a kidney. I am awaiting more word from her mother who was in route to be with her. They have begun to circle the wagons as the other two siblings are being tested to see if they might be suitable donors. Her mother is also going to be tested as well as Krl and Ollie's grandparents. I know I am the wrong blood type but in addition to this I cannot even donate blood due to having osteo-myalitis many years ago. Unless something has recently changed, I will never be a viable blood or organ donor. I figure the first step will be dialysis when it is called for. One thing about this group we are hard headed and we are not quitters.

It seems like every time Ollie gets things going in one direction something will scatter them like a covey of quail. Of course as many of you know, she was named 2004 rookie of the year for Remax. She recovered from a slow start to have a really good first quarter of '05. Recently she had become engaged and was planning a Vegas getaway for her wedding later in the year. In addition to this she has been taking a full load of classes (until recently) working toward her college degree. FYI Saturday the 23rd she will turn 23. Happy birthday Ol!

Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers as her doctors work out a plan of action. Pray for a suitable donor to be found.

FATHER I am humbled by YOUR opportunites for GRACE. I don't know where to start. I am full of questions, I want to be mad, I just don't know. But I do know YOU are in control and YOU can move mountains, through YOU all things are possible. I pray that YOU will deliver Ollie from this affliction. Restore her and make her whole. I continue to pray for Krl and her health. Thank YOU for resting her last night. I pray for Hag, for B., for Lillie, for Carol, for Michelle, for Aimee, for Ashlyn Kate, for TJ, for Anna, for Jess, for Jennifer, for Tori, for thos recovering from their injuries, for Yaenga, and for Dr. Mackie. I ask YOUR healing for them all. I continue to pray for those saddened with grief. I ask that YOU comfort them. I pray for those of us who encounter obstacles in our journey with YOU. I pray for our spiritual family and for our leaders. Every blessing YOU pour out I'll turn back in praise!