July 1! Fast approaching Independence Day, but today is "a dependent day". I continue to battle the deep depression. I know I need to finish up this packing and remove myself from the premises and I will be much much better. Tuesday creditors begin selling off assets, the first of which is this office building. They have been receiving thirty-five hundred dollars a month but decided to accelerate the note and sell it on the courthouse steps. This whole ordeal has been so educational for me. There is no justice in this life. I have confidence GOD will deal with that in the end. When the wheels started coming off this monster in 2001 we started notifying leasing companies and creditors that with the economic downturn in our industry we needed to lighten our debt load by returning some equipment. Most were very accommodating and cordial. This equipment was returned to their designated destination at our expense and the equipment was "intact", not stripped down. After a few weeks my brother-in-law who was barely involved on the fringe of this business was doing some of his farm business and they pulled a credit report. It showed a seven-hundred-seventy-five thousand dollar "credit card" charge off from one of these leasing companies! When he told us of that we checked all of the pertinent players credit reports and walla, it was on all of them! The interesting part was that they charged each pertinent with the entire amount of the lease or in other words they took a tax benefit of a three- million eight-hundred-seventy-five thousand dollars loss. When asked about why it was done as a credit card charge off they said it was their option. Two years after the fact they have sued us individually for the same deal. Basically a creditor can mess you over time and time again as long as they want to while they repeatedly take the tax benefits, they can report anything they choose on your report and it is up to you to prove it is wrong. They have me as having lived in Arkansas and Houston and I just can't catch a break. Whoever they had living there that they thought was me had worse credit than I did! The way my credit is at present I only wish someone would steal my identity! It appears eventually protection will be required.

One bit of good news! Krl has a job interview in the morning! It has benefits! We will hope for the best and remain confident that GOD is working his plan! She is very nervous. I will say "happy anniversary" to her a day in advance! Good luck at your interview! I love you dear!

While doing my early morning reading (it is fiction, not inspirational or anything like that) I was reading about a lady who was talking to her priest about a major problem that was directly in front of her. The priest said that challenges are compliments from GOD and indicate his love for us. Each challenge is an opportunity for HIS grace. I am still mulling this over in my muddled brain! More when it has completed the mulling cycle!

FATHER I thank YOU for today and its blessings! Thank YOU for Krl and for blessing my life with her! I pray that I have been as big a blessing to her! Bless our relationship, may we continue to grow in love together! Expand us! Use us! Be with her in her job search! FATHER I continue to lift up Aimee Harris and Rene' Baxter to YOU for YOUR miracle of healing. FATHER please continue to bless them. FATHER please fill me with YOUR spirit, bless me with YOUR mercy and YOUR grace. Carry me FATHER!